I know I have been an absentee blogger lately. Honestly, I've had a hard time talking about our pregnancy to anyone. I am scared. Scared something might be wrong. Scared to love this little being anymore than I do already. Scared to become too attached. Scared to plan for our future with a child. And the more I talk about it or put it into words, the more real it becomes and the more I love the growing soul inside me. I am scared to love something I might lose.
I am filled with anxiety, stress, fear and hope. I have panned the internet searching for nuchal translucency measurements like mine and most of my reading tells me the statistics are on our side. But the genetic counselor I spoke with last week failed to reassure me of this. She continued to tell me the 2.4mm measurement was high and she couldn't give me any statistics or numbers.
If we get the all-clear for chromosomal defects, we still have to wait until July for an echocardiogram and ultrasound to check for heart defects. And the another in August. All I want to do is enjoy this time, and I don't feel like I can yet. Hopefully soon....
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Our Ceremony, May 19, 2007
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About Me
- LKC
- Charlotte, North Carolina, United States
- My partner and I met in the summer of 2005 and from that moment, I knew this was the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. On May 19th, 2007 we held a commitment ceremony in the North Carolina mountains. Now we're ready to have a baby.
10 comments:
My partner and I are going through
something similar. Our triple screen can back with a 1 in 33
chances for Down syndrome. It was
too late for the CVS and the Amnio
could not be done because of an
anterior placenta. We are going ahead with the pregnancy and hoping for the best. We feel for you and wish you all the best.
Oh hun I'm sorry you're in this pickle. It must be so hard. I am thinking of you often and wishing you much peace in the coming weeks. xoxo
I dont know what to say, we will face these things soon too I guess, not sure how we would cope.. you are being very brave, i hope its sorted soon for you xx
I hate that this isn't easier. I'm hoping all is well soon and you are able to enjoy your pregnancy. I'm thinking peaceful, positive thoughts.
i'm sorry for the fear and sending you light and love.
I'm so sorry. I'm sending you lots of positive energy for a peaceful pregnancy and the best news for you wonderful ladies!
I've been thinking about you guys lately - so sorry you have to go through all of this uncertainty.
hey girls - i was holding my breath, checking your blog today. i agree that you are in such a difficult position, having to wait and being scared to connect with your baby. i can't imagine. what i do know is that you are giving so many of us an incredible gift by sharing ALL parts of your story. Many have been through this. Many will go through this. You two are amazing women and will make incredible parents, of this I have no doubt. We are thinking about you and crossing our fingers.
Nobody wants to be wrong about this stuff, but I for one feel sure things are going to work out for the best for you. You are going to have a good, happy life and the family you want. Let me say it again: you are going to have a good, happy life and the family you want.
Hoping for a healthy and happy pregnancy and that you will have nothing to worry about. Stay positive and don't lose hope. xo
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