Happy Birthday!

Our little guy turned one year old last week and I have no idea where the time has gone. I have found myself reminiscing about the days after his birth when he was so little and would sleep in my arms and on my chest. I think I will definitely hold baby number two just a little bit longer and treasure those moments just a little bit more.

Speaking of baby number two, I am still waiting for my cycle to come back. I am just winding down breastfeeding. The plan is to move forward with IUI(s) after I have at least two cycles, so hopefully sometime at the beginning of 2010. Sadly, we only have one vial left of Miller's donor and he has since retired. We ordered three vials the other day from a new donor and they are now waiting for us at our RE's office. I cannot wait to start this wonderful journey all over again. Perhaps this will motivate me to start blogging more. :)

Too Long....

It has been an incredibly long time since I have last updated this blog, I am sure few of you are left reading. Life is busy but not so busy that I can't occasionally take the time to post. Please accept my apologies.

Miller will be 11 months old on Friday. 11 MONTHS. Where did the time go? Lately I've been rocking him to sleep at night and just staring at him, trying to remember every day of the last 11 months, trying to remember how small he was, trying to remember when he couldn't even hold his head up...but I can't. The days all seem to flow into weeks and into months and all that is in my consciousness is the here and now. The tears literally fill up my eyes on an almost nightly basis because he is growing up so fast. I just want to hold his little body against mine forever and ever. He is my heart.

I leave you with a few recent pictures of my little big man!

Five Months Old

I can't believe it has been nearly 4 months since my last post. Wow. Time flies. It isn't that I haven't had blogworthy things to write about - because I have - like the disappointment of not being able to make enough milk after pumping religiously, taking the prescription Reglan, having Miller's frenulum clipped, taking More Milk Plus herbs, and the disappointment of having to supplment with formula, like my struggle with the baby blues, like the arrival of our wonderful au pair, like my difficult return to work, like struggles with sleep - I could go on and on. Now most of those issues seem so far removed, except I still haven't slept for eight hours straight since November 29th and I still struggle with milk production (we still have to supplement) but otherwise life with Miller is grand. Those of you that are my internt friends who are still trying to conceive, hang in there, because it is all worth it in the end. And in the end, you will barely remember the struggles of trying to get there. I will leave you with some pictures of Miller at four and a half months old. I vow to be better about updating.